My Job is Not so Fun Anymore

by Tammy on December 6, 2017

Time seems to be getting away from me again. I cannot believe that this year is almost over. Christmas is only nineteen days away. My house is mostly decorated. I seem to have gotten rid of my outside lights, so it is only half done out there, but the inside is as done as it is going to be. I like the festive look–it helps me take my mind off of the crappy weather. Honestly, it wasn’t too bad until a cold front came through three days ago. At least the sun has been shining most days, but I could certainly do without the cold temps. Unfortunately, it is only going to get worse. I had Florida to look forward to, but now I have to look forward to getting the house ready to sell so that I can spend NEXT winter down south.

I started this post a few days ago but as usual, I never finished it, so I will go ahead and include it and finish up at the end. Most of the time I enjoy substitute teaching, but Friday made me not want to go back to work for a long time. Interestingly, out of the three first grade classes at the school I taught at Friday (which all had subs, because the teachers were at training), two of them were so bad that the principal got called in to “talk” to the kids. The other sub, who I know from when I worked as a para, has been teaching for many years, so as much as I sometimes think it’s just my lack of classroom discipline experience, I have to believe that if she had issues too, then maybe it wasn’t my fault that they were so unruly.

With that being said, though, this school has a really weird culture. I subbed preschool there a couple of weeks ago and the paras were constantly running to get the principal, which I thought was odd based on the fact that the behaviors they were calling him in for were NOTHING compared to what I used to handle alone when I worked as a para. I thought it was just because they were both relatively new, but when the seasoned paras were running to the principal because my class was being chatty and yes, a bit disrespectful, I was floored. I left with a bad taste in my mouth and a desire to never teach there again. It is obvious that the principal is a micro manager who wants to know every move that is made in the subs’ classrooms. Anyway, I only have one job lined up for this week, and it is just a half day in my old preschool classroom on Thursday. I am contemplating working tomorrow (Wednesday), but I am going to be very selective about the school I work in if I do decide to work.

Today (Tuesday) I had a mammogram. This past October I felt a ‘lump’ that got large right before my period, but then it shrunk down when my period started, so I wasn’t too worried about it. However, Dan thought it would be good to have it checked out, and I had made an appointment with my doctor to get my asthma meds refilled, so I promised him I’d have her take a look. She wasn’t concerned either, but since it had been awhile since my last mammo, she thought it would be wise to schedule one. I truly wasn’t concerned, and I almost canceled my appointment, but I do have to admit that I am very glad it’s behind me and that I know it’s nothing. I feel free, if that makes sense–sort of like I can now move on with life. I think having the appointment hanging over my head made me feel like I had a lot to do, even though it was only an hour out of my life. I spent more time grocery shopping yesterday than I did at the clinic today. And maybe the not knowing for sure weighed on me a bit more than I realized, but now I can focus on enjoying the holidays without worrying.

So today I need to be productive with school. I didn’t get anything done this past weekend and one of my classes will be ending soon. I have all my exams finished, I just need to power through some papers. The stats class has been much slower going, so I need to focus my attention there. Wish me luck!


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